Survivor's remorse.

In urban, large metropolitan trauma centers, we are accustomed to seeing the most gruesome morbidity and mortality in medicine. By far, the most devastating morbidity and mortality to observe are those inflicted on one human being to another. Gun violence is pervasive in this industrialized country, and it impacts us all. Staff, residents, and faculty in trauma centers bear the brunt of this trauma, second only to the families and communities that suffer the loss of loved ones. This burden is especially heavy for health care workers who share the same ethnic background of those who are disproportionately affected by interpersonal gun violence. Survivors of gun violence exist on a spectrum of chronic illness that ranges in physical and mental morbidity and social disruption in loss of wages and capabilities. This disease not only infects those wounded or killed but also transmits through communities and generations. Urban violence exists because of historic and systematic racism. It continues to persist because racism creates inequities in the quality of education, housing, and investment in urban environments, exacerbated by residential segregation. For two providers, a trainee and a faculty member of African descent, conscious of the determinants that create gun violence, it is overwhelming. We, as health care providers, must tell our stories and the stories of those whose voices are not empowered. We can hope that, by sharing these experiences, we stimulate action and change by raising the moral consciousness of those unaware of the tragedies we witness every day.