Kerrigan Keith, Green Gill
a RAID Liaison Mental Health Team , Antrim Area Hospital , Antrim , Northern Ireland.
b School of Health and Social Care , University of Essex , Colchester , England.
J Homosex. 2019;66(5):635-652. doi: 10.1080/00918369.2017.1423219. Epub 2018 Mar 5.
This article explores how previous exposure to religious homonegativity features in the sense-making process following HIV diagnosis in a homogenous sample of six gay men living in Northern Ireland. Interpretive phenomenological analysis was used to identify two key overarching themes: Negotiating authenticity in unsafe space, which relates to the experience of negotiating same-sex attraction within religious environments, and Re-emergence of religious shame in diagnosis, which relates to the way in which the men made sense of diagnosis from the position of having been exposed to religious homonegativity earlier in their lives. Findings demonstrate how the men negotiated their sexual orientation within religious contexts and how a reconstruction of God was necessary to preserve an authentic sense of self. Despite reaching reconciliation, HIV was initially appraised within a retributive religious framework that served to temporarily reinforce previously learned shame-based models of understanding this aspect of the self.
本文探讨了在北爱尔兰生活的六名男同性恋者的同质样本中，先前接触到的宗教性取向歧视在艾滋病毒诊断后的意义建构过程中是如何体现的。采用解释现象学分析方法，确定了两个关键的总体主题：在不安全空间中协商真实性，这与在宗教环境中协商同性吸引的经历有关；诊断中宗教羞耻感的再度浮现，这与这些男性从早年接触宗教性取向歧视的立场出发理解诊断的方式有关。研究结果表明了这些男性如何在宗教背景下协商他们的性取向，以及如何对上帝进行重新建构以保持真实的自我意识。尽管达成了和解，但艾滋病毒最初是在一种惩罚性宗教框架内被评估的，这种框架暂时强化了先前习得的基于羞耻感的自我认知模式。
