Jeffrey W D
Psychoanalytic Institute, New York University School of Medicine, USA.
Psychoanal Study Child. 1995;50:398-417.
H.D., the noted writer Hilda Doolittle, wrote three differing accounts of her first analytic session with Freud, held on March 1, 1933. The first account was written on the same day as her session in a letter to her friend Bryher; it indicates that Freud did not meet H. D.'s preformed transference expectation. Although H. D. focused on her fear of Freud's rejection, her deeper concern was her disappointment in Freud and her fear of loving a person who might die soon. In 1944, five years after Freud's death, H. D. wrote a second account of the session in "Tribute to Freud" in which she attempted to recall an idealized memory of Freud. To do this her description split the session into a part in which she projected her anger onto Freud and a part in which she reconciled with Freud in a mystical, wordless communication by means of her relation to his dog, Yofi. Her third account, "Advent," was written in 1948, following a period of psychosis. At that time H. D. was able to acknowledge that she had been frightened of loving a man who was vulnerable to death and to restore Freud's presence by identifying with this analytic ability.
著名作家希尔达·杜利特尔（H.D.）写了三篇关于她1933年3月1日与弗洛伊德首次分析治疗 session 的不同记述。第一篇记述是在她治疗 session 的同一天写给朋友布莱赫尔的一封信中写下的；它表明弗洛伊德没有满足H.D.预先形成的移情期望。尽管H.D.专注于她对弗洛伊德拒绝的恐惧，但她更深层次的担忧是她对弗洛伊德的失望以及她对爱上一个可能很快死去的人的恐惧。1944年，在弗洛伊德去世五年后，H.D.在《向弗洛伊德致敬》中写下了对这次治疗 session 的第二篇记述，在其中她试图回忆起对弗洛伊德理想化的记忆。为此，她的描述将这次治疗 session 分为两部分，一部分是她将愤怒投射到弗洛伊德身上，另一部分是她通过与他的狗约菲的关系，以一种神秘的、无声的交流方式与弗洛伊德和解。她的第三篇记述《降临》写于1948年，是在一段精神病发作期之后。那时，H.D.能够承认她曾害怕爱上一个易受死亡威胁的男人，并通过认同这种分析能力来恢复弗洛伊德的形象。
