Reflecting on the knowledge used when caring for an intensive care patient and his/her family.

Carper's four ways of knowing are used to structure a reflection on the knowledge used by an associate nurse in intensive care when caring for her patient, his wife and son. John, the patient, had previously undergone a sex change operation as well as cardiac surgery. His current period in intensive care was due to pancreatitis and involved numerous returns to theatre. He eventually died following multi-organ failure. The reflection focuses on the associate nurse's feelings when trying to act as an advocate for both John and his wife at the time of the patient's pending death.