Self-perceived effects of sexual trauma among women who smoke crack.

This descriptive study examined how Black women who smoke crack cocaine spoke about their experiences of sexual trauma, drug use, and the implications of these experiences for their lives. The authors also explored whether the women's perceptions of the effects of sexual abuse were related to objective indicators of mental health and drug use. The most commonly reported effects of sexual trauma were feeling dirty or ashamed or blaming self, having negative feelings toward the perpetrator, experiencing a general dislike of men or sex, and reporting a conscious reluctance to cope with the incident. In addition, conscious or unconscious denial of the effects of sexual trauma was associated with use of drugs to cope with intrapersonal and interpersonal feelings, inwardly directed responses to the trauma (e.g., self-blaming, feeling ashamed) were positively related to depression, and outwardly directed responses to the trauma (e.g., anger at the perpetrator) were positively related to self-esteem. These findings are discussed in terms of their implications for the self-medication model of substance use, treatment implications for women who have been sexually abused, and the role of self-perception in the relationship between sexual trauma and long-term outcomes.